Saturday, February 19, 2011
I can't believe my boy is two months old! It feels like I just brought him home from the hospital! It is already moving so quickly and I struggle constantly with wanting to slow it all down. I love how much he is changing, but I want so badly to keep him little.
We go this week to see how much Eli has grown, and I'm going to guess that it's a lot. He nurses all the time And is wearing 3 month clothes. He sleeps better, in about 4 hour chunks, but I'm still a pretty tired lady. He smiles and coos at me and knows when his mommy has him! Such a sweet boy.
Ava loves her brother and loves helping with him, but has been a little bit of a challenge with Jay and I. It has been exhausting staying on top of her and I have hit my limit on more than one occasion. Ava is naturally energetic and strong willed, something I have a hard time dealing with because it is very unfamiliar to me. But when she sets her mind to being difficult because there is a new baby getting what was at one time attention given to her, she can wear her mother out! It has been a challenge I am trying to meet prayerfully. Really asking the Lord to not only give me energy and patience, but strength and a will that is stronger than Ava's. And also, especially, wisdom. I wish I could say I have been patient and strong and wise every step of the way, but I have not. I have had plenty of moments when I truly question whether or not I can do this job. The incredibly difficult job of caring for these children without, hopefully, totally screwing them up. And plenty of moments when every other mother seems like a better mother than I am. I did not anticipate this particular struggle before I had Eli, and the shock of it has been difficult. Thank God that his loving kindness never fails and His mercies are new every morning. Without that new mercy I would for sure be lost!
And here are the pictures....